Hello everyone. Thank you SO SO MUCH for your sweet comments and wishes from last week. It means a lot and brightens up my day. This next week at the clinic was full of ups and downs. More ups actually but it started very stressful. Here’s the story:

August 28. A very bad day. My Martin had to pick me up and I slept the rest of the day. It was just overwhelmingly disturbing and I had no explanation why.

August 29. A very good day. I had a wonderful night of sleep and felt super. It felt so great that I stitched happy french knots round my stitching project.

August 30. Again a very good day. But that’s scary, too. One day you feel broken and the next you’re all giddy and jippieh. Difficult. So so difficult.

August 31. My reward for having survived the first week. A cheerful color and it made my day.

 

September 1. Second attempt to join a social event outside but I realized – again – I can’t stand crowds together with loud music. So I escaped into an empty bar and waited until it was time to go. Not the best solution but a compromise.

September 2. A cup of tea in the evening trying to prepare myself for the second week.

September 3. Took this picture 3 minutes before going to sleep because I forgot to take one during the day. Because I forget the most simple things. Sometimes it’s about getting up and coming home. In between there’s not much at some days.

September 4. Found this in a book and welcomed it with a smile. Finally i can admit to myself that it’s NOT always about being strong. I’ve been that for too long and that’s what caused all this mess. It’s important to let go sometimes and admit weakness and vulnerability. Fighting for too long WILL tear you down one day. Let the healing begin!

6 Comments

  1. Hey Lou! I haven’t been around to visit in a while and I just read your last post. I’m so glad that you have not only found the courage to get help, but to share your experience with others too. Depression can be a lonely road. I know, I’ve been through it myself. And sometimes the only thing that is comforting is to know that you’re not the only one. So thank you for sharing your story. I know I’m a few weeks behind, but I hope it’s going better for you. Remember, take it one day at a time. XO

  2. frauheuberg Reply

    hallo liebste Lou…ich bin auch ganz fest in Gedanken bei dir und schicke ganz ganz viel postive Energie zu dir…hoffe alles läuft rund für dich, soweit das möglich ist…hast du meine Mail bekommen? Wegen dem GIVEAWAY, nicht schlimm, wenn du das nicht schaffst…abervielleicht magst du es ja mir schicken…;)…drück dich und wir mailen…liebste Grüsse…alles Liebe…cheers and hugs…i…

  3. Du bist großartig Lou! Alles Gute auf deinem Weg!
    Tschakka du schaffst das!
    LG Sarah

  4. Jules kleines Freudenhaus Reply

    Liebste Lou,
    ich drück dir weiter alle Daumen und denke jeden Tag an dich, wenn ich auf mein Sternchenarmband schaue…
    Allerliebste Mittwochsgrüße
    Jules

  5. I’m wishing you good thoughts as you try to overcome your depression…you have such courage to share your experiences. I admire that so much! Your photos are lovely, too. :)

  6. Thank you so much for sharing this! Hope you will feel better soon and I think you are a very strong person even when you surrender to vulnerability. xo

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